I should not have this much anger in my life towards one person. My mom is driving me to the point of wanting to just never speak to her again. She quit drinking.... according to her and her PBT's. (but I know those are easy to pass; even after a night of drinking.) However, that is ALL she has done. She hardly spends any time at all with her children. When she actually is at home with them, Joey goes into his room to watch TV all night or play his Xbox. Omar sits next to her, wanting her to pay attention to him, but all they do is watch TV. If they ask to go swimming or go to the beach... or anywhere, she tells me to take them. If I do not take them, they just stay home in front of their boxes. It is ridiculous.
My mom spends most of her time outside of work at her boyfriends house. She tells everyone she spends one night a week at his house.... she spends about 3-5 nights a week there. On top of that, I only require her to pay me $20 a day...and food for the kids. I rarely get the $20, and if we do it goes for food. *sigh* She gambles most of her money away.... and gets upset when I ask her for $20. Even when it's for food. She seems to think $80 of junk food is enough to feed the kids for a week...?!
I am so tired of listening to her lie and act like she has done nothing wrong. She isn't grateful to anyone for anything!! She is always saying she needs time alone with her boyfriend, but I have not had a night alone with my husband..... well, I can't remember the last time. The longest we have gone without children is a few hours. For some reason, SHE is allowed to have time alone with her man, yet I am not.
It is my fault. I am enabling her. What choice do I have? She'll just leave the kids with whoever or worse; leave them home alone.
Honestly, she should just give me custody of the kids!! Sadly, the reason she would never do that is because of those checks she gets from social security for Joey. (the checks I should have been collecting since March, but never went through with it because I didn't want to make things harder on my mom when it comes to paying her bills. I'm an idiot. She never cared if we were struggling at all.... I am so tired of her.
Some people just shouldn't be mothers.
