My first post. Shouldn't it be epic? I always think of clever topics to write about at home when I am unfortunate to not have internet! Then when I finally have the chance, I am at a loss for words. I suppose I shall just start by introducing my family and myself. I originally planned on keeping this blog anonymous, but that just isn't my style. Sometimes I offend people with my honesty, but the more my relationship with Jesus grows, the less I TRY to offend people. It still happens though. Christians are not always well liked.
My name is Nadia. I'm 26 years old. I am a Christian, a wife, mother, and foster parent to my two brothers (will talk more about that later, but legally can't post much) . I love my life on most days. I have had periods of "depression" that were mostly due to my own thoughts and inability to let go of the past. Overall, I am a happy person that tends to be a bit cynical due to being hurt. I have a hard time forgiving the *big* things, but easily overlook the little things. I have only been in romantic love once. It has been a little rocky, but our love has never faded. It has been tested, devastated, but still going strong and getting stronger every day.
My husband is Scott. He is a great man, although I seem to always find a reason to complain about him. I usually remember how great he is when I hear about my friends' husbands or boyfriends. Other than 2009, our rocky year that we separated, he has been a wonderful man. Always learning and trying to grow in his faith. He loves his kids. He loves me. Most importantly, he loves God! (which makes the love for myself and our children even sweeter!) He has given up a lot for his family and I love that about him. It gives me pride to know he is a better man when he with me. Okay....and he makes me strive to be a better woman and Christian.
Our kids are Corbin, 10, Aidan, 5, and Laila, 8 months. Corbin is from Scott's previous marriage. He visits every other weekend and we share holidays. Our relationship isn't as peaceful as I'd like it to be, but mixed families are never easy. I notice we get along best when no one else is around. It's then that he opens to me and tells me things that he normally wouldn't. I'd like to think our relationship will get better, but he is going to be a teenager soon. ;)
Aidan is my heart and soul. I know I shouldn't but I love him so much more than anyone. He has changed me. I feel bad for Laila. How will she ever compete? Maybe I don't love him more, it's probably just a different kind of love. I joke and say that Aidan is our perfect child. He never required much punishment. We never had to deal with terrible twos. Although he loved to ask "Why?". It's also pretty important to mention that my son was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia in November of 2010. It has been a life changing event. The two most painful events in my life are: Aidan's diagnosis and the near end of our marriage. Both are devastating and life changing. Both have the ability to cripple a family or make a family stronger. I am proud to say it is making us stronger! It's all God though. We wouldn't be strong enough to any of this without Him. Needless to say, you will hear my uncensored opinions on the Leukemia for the next few years. I have a care page for Aidan, but obviously don't get too personal with it. It's his care page, not my soap box.
Moving on. My darling Laila. I wanted a girl so badly. I love her. I do. She is just difficult. She doesn't sleep through the night. She is just now taking a bottle. All she wants to do is nurse and be held by mommy. If she isn't being held, she wants to be entertained. She always wants to do something. She is so active. Is it because she is a girl? Or is it because I am over spoiling her? Or maybe I just notice it more than I did with Aidan. I don't know. I just know I want the next baby to be a boy.
So that is my family. I could write more. I could write forever. And I will. Just have to get the hang of this blogging thing again.
God Bless!
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